So maybe this is just a passing thought but I'm becoming uncertain about Kalgarium Chronicles again.
First of all is how little time and motivation I've recently had. Yeah, it's a medical issue for the most part, but I'm also sort of 'meh' about it. Maybe I'm not really suited for this sort of thing? Like, the whole running a group thing. Yeah, I can do a lot of art and stay on task and set goals and boundaries and I think I'm pretty good. But really, achieving them is becoming a problem at the moment. And I kind of need to stay on the ball to do something big like this.
Secondly is that the world Kalgarium is in is super complex! Like, this world has been stiring around in my mind for years. All of my ocs and creative world ideas from like 6th grade (and some even older) to now are mashed together in this one world. That's like 4 years! And I have a lot of thoughts! It's not just that there are lots of ideas, but that they're hard to explain. And it's hard to make it into an RPG group where people wont be OP and wont be confused about how things work. Magic and world creation is hard.
But what's even more difficult for me is because I kind of really want to do an RPG group. I want to create my own world where others make characters in. Yeah, I'm a ToI admin and I really enjoy it and it's fun but I want my own world. I want my own ideal world where others will put their characters into and make friends through it and show that I can do it. I can be a leader and set the goals and lay down the law. But shit. I dunno if Kalgarium is small enough for that. It's only worse that I make a lot of cool little universes of my own in my head that I think would be interesting ideas for RPG groups.
Bleh. Sorry for the ramble, just wanted to get that out there.